At last..a new one.. Hostelog: Series II - Ep. I

Oldies but Moldies: Eggs Benedict - The Movie

For the sake of the Update.

And now.. the top one annoyance of the week:

Being woken up and/or interrupted by incompetent morning people.


Thank you.


In other news, it's weird to consider that I may soon have a half sister.

Also, Criminal Minds is great. I highly recommend it. Will I watch the show after Mandy Patinkin leaves? Highly doubt it.

Furthermore, it seems unlikely that the world won't get over MJ soon enough. Everywhere you look, it's a circus of people with their opinions.. Get a life, people.

And for those tributing him, cool for you...Informative shows about a talented dude are a-okay with me, just don't keep it going past its time just to boost your ratings.


Eh. I'm off today. It could be a good day- Who knows yet.

A tribute of sorts.

See you around, MJ. I'll be sure to blame it on the boogie in your absence~

The 1:45pm Thought..

A little Al Green can go a long way. Trust me.




Thank you~

Balderdash! The Series: Volume 7- All Williams All Star Edition

With the stars:

Billy Dee Williams



Vanessa Williams



Barry Williams




And..as a last minute fill in for Robin Williams-

Special Guest:

William Shatner




Recording Date: 6/20/09
Filmed on Location at: Casa de Burgener's

Hello, hello one and all, and welcome to the very last episode of Balderdash: The Series! We're happy to have you back for this exciting final round, with a select grouping an All Williams All Star cast on this roster. It's been quite a wild ride, and with a predominant blend of Words and Movie Titles, we intend to go out with a bang! So..with that being said, let's take a deep breath, suit up and....

Away we go!




1.Words- "Biggins"

BW: A portly child
WS: A species of gnat roughly seventy times the size of a normal gnat.
*BDW: The basket in a coffee pot that holds the coffee grounds.
VW: ..slang in Great Britian, means "to grow".


2. Abbreviations- "L.N.F.C."

*BDW: Leonard Nimoy Fan Club
VW: League of Nations Financial Corporation
WS: Look No Further Consortium
BW: Leotards Never Fit Corporation


3.Movie Titles- "Another Flip For Dominic"

WS: Dominic owns a pancake joint in danger of going under. The community bands together to raise the money he owes so that he might flip pancakes again.

*BW: A time traveling government agent in the 21st Century changes the past to make the future better.

VW: The story of Russian gymnast Dominic Vlatski, the 14 year old who won the gold in Calgary in 1984.

BDW: After a fall off the pommel horse leaves gymnast Dominic Heady paralyzed, he begins a new life of flipping homes for profit.


4.Laws- "In Detroit, MI, it is against the law to fall asleep while..."

VW: ...driving an American-made automobile.
WS: ...discoing.
*BW: ...taking a bath.
BDW: ...serving on a jury.


5.Abbreviations- "L.P.B.T."

*BDW: Ladies Professional Bowling Tour
WS: Long Point Bacon Traders
BW: Liposuction Positioning Bilateral Transmission
VW: Licensed Pilots of Bahamas Today



6.Movie Titles- "Sunny Side Up"

WS: The sun explodes, destroying the Earth. The only survivors live on the dark side of the moon.

*BW: After a woman working at a big city pickle factory gets stressed out, she moves to the countryside to relax.

BDW: A failing roadside diner is visited by inquisitive aliens who bring hope to the ailing owners and ideas for saving the business.

VW: A cartoon about optimistic eggs on a farm.


7.Words- "Rutmus"

*VW: A mixture of mashed potatoes and turnips
BW: Christmas for bums.
WS: A tool for clearing out the ruts in a wagon path.
BDW: A nutritive carpet of decomposing leaves.


8.Movie Titles- "The Amazing Dr. G"

*BW: Italian movie take-off on the James Bond film GoldFinger.

BDW: After discovering a spot that pleasures every woman, Dr. G. is on the run from militant feminists.

VW: Doctor Giggles is back after escaping from jail, and this time he's taking on new \u201cpatients\u201d in Australia.

WS: A tale about a therapist that finds god and begins to preach to his patients earning him the nickname "Doctor God" or "Dr. G" for short.


9.Movie Titles- "Second Thought"

VW: A female lawyer gets a divorce and moves in with a wizened old hippie.

*WS: An inspirational story of a man overcoming his second thoughts about adopting a child.

BW: A short documentary starring Bill Nye The Science Guy chronicling the many unsafe experiments he's performed over the years.

BDW: An inner city school teacher starts to hear thoughts that aren't her own. Is she going mad or being warned of a sinister evil...


10.Words- "Soogeemoogee"

WS: A slang word for intercourse made popular in the 1920's.
*VW: A nautical cleaning compound used for cleaning boats.
BDW: The sound a drunk cow makes.
BW: Ritualistic Asian squaredancing.



And now...for the final time, this concludes another episode of Balderdash. And as the series draws to close, we'd like to take this opportunity to thank all of our special guests for starring throughout the show, and to especially thank you, the audience for coming along on this spectacular ride. So, from all us here at Balderdash....see you in syndication....and perhaps.. Beyond!

Of course, how can we possibly end the show without...


Bonus Games!


*1. Words- "Bletting"

*VW: The spotting that occurs on fruit when it starts to rot.

BDW: Short for blood-letting the medical practice of draining blood from a patient's head to cure headaches and psychological disorders.

BW: When a better loses at the race track and tries to explain this to a loan shark who just punched him in the mouth.

WS: Slang combination of bluffing and betting...betting something you do not have.


*2. Words- "Sigogglin"

BW: The euphoric facial expression found on those who have just eaten a caramel apple.

*BDW: Tilted to the right.

WS: The traditional dwelling of the Arapaho Indians.

VW: Tool used by Nasa to inspect space dust and moon rocks.


*3. Words- "Myomancy"

VW: The term for a malignant tumor found in the breast.

*BDW: Fortune telling by watching the movement of mice.

BW: The famous slurring of "My old aunt Nancy", made famous by Abraham Lincoln.

WS: A voodoo curse for causing an enemy to lose his sight.

*4. Movie Titles- "12+1"

BDW: In the future, a wayward comet smashes into the Earth, changing its orbit around the Sun. Suddenly, the 12 months of 2020 are over and yet there's another month to come; a month of darkness.

BW: Film regarding Stephen Hawking, in an attempt to stop time, forgets to add the necessary integers 12 + 1 in the time equation and loses his wheelchair in the Mesozoic Era.



*5. Words- "Vibrasse"

BW: Vietnamese goats in captivity.

*WS: The hair in the nostrils.

VW: An exotic animal that resembles a zebra wearing a bra.

BDW: The technical term for coin-operated vibrating beds commonly found in sleazy motels. (Is this really the last answer seen on this show?? Eh. Why not.)






The stars were:

Vanessa Williams : Whoville
Billy Dee Williams: Dick
Barry Williams: Jimmy
William Shatner: Enrico



...thanks for the magic. See you soon~

A quick self shrink session.

It's really just one of those days where I'm feeling stagnant...like I could be doing something with my life, I'm just waiting for the reason to do so. I never liked the way this feels. 27 years is just around the corner and I'm being so lax over it. Some days it seems like it's my birthday every day of the week and I'm constantly reminded of the time I've wasted. I think I just need about 10 grand to get my own place, a real computer, and just write. Or finally go back to college...cause it seems that everyday I don't do what I need to do with my life is just another day I'm growing dimmer...older...and jaded.

I think the real beef I'm having lately is in my head. The desire to write is always with me, but I can't do it. It's like I block myself from doing it..the idea that I'll have a great idea but ruin the whole thing by not finishing it. That's the problem with having a track record-- it never wipes itself clean no matter how many times you try to disprove it. It's a blemish on everything you do.

Maybe I'm just having an overly moody day..or maybe I'm thinking too much, but it almost feels as though everywhere I go to get myself established doesn't really matter... Sure, I have great friends here, and a pseudo job and place to live, but am I doing anything to better myself or my life? No. Just being the same old useless me in some mundane patch, being the worker ant and praying for a change.

It's good having a best friend though.. It is. I typically find myself wanting to open up to people, and still find it hard to really get down into the core of me and find the truth. Besties tend to see that, whether you try to get at it yourself or not. I'm not good at that.

I've been having the worst issues with internet conversation lately. It's strange. I can sit here and type to my heart's content in any topic, in many different subtangents, but when it comes to typing a few lines to another living breathing person, it becomes a challenge to be truly understood. Is it so hard to translate the conversation of the 3 dimensional world to this little plastic hard candied version? It shouldn't be. I'm a writer, it's in me to express myself thoroughly and openly, right? Am i truly that insecure about being judged/misunderstood that when words don't come out right, I get frustrated?

That's just stupid.. I hate that so much. Why bother speaking the english language if you just get it wrong depending on the medium you use it in. I won't be that fool any longer. I'm a competent intelligent individual and refuse to be limited by the things I can or cannot say. I must be true to me...and I must be heard. Without conversation, without some minimal form of communication, why does one need to exist? It's the riddle of the universe---how can I understand myself almost perfectly and yet the rest of the denizens of the planet cannot follow the things only I know so well....

I know that I won't always be understood by all. I'm almost alright with that, but the ones I value most not hearing my 'voice', that unnerves me. I think the most unpleasant part of this equation is that I find typing to be so relaxing. It's almost easier to type than to handwrite.. Sure, the handwriting is much more personal, but then...there's a conflicting element to that... The things I type are so much more immediate to me--no thinking..just straight to the fingers to let them create the parallels I'm envisioning. I can't understand why that concept cannot be applied to any conversation I have online.. Is it because the conversation involves another party...that party being completely unpredictable and different from myself? That's probably the smart answer.

I don't know. I try not to be consciously rude. And strangely enough, I 'listen' to past conversations in my head for traces of cynicism.. That's been cropping up recently. I've seen that alot. It's to do with my feelings of inadequacy lately as mentioned earlier. Not having a proper fitting job, not being able to do the things I need to do financially, being creatively stifled.. It just jumps on your shoulders for as long as you can carry it. I never respond well to coming to several conclusions all at once.. They should be allowed to come to me one at time, instead of Pandora boxed, leaping to and fro, waiting to see if I can process them all at the same time.

I can't. I suck at it actually. Change is still a frightening perspective to me--no matter where I've traveled to or whom I've met. That doesn't explain why I'm horrible at making plans though. Spontaneity is all about sudden change. Plans usually get a framework that isn't much deviated...Eh. Probably the same reason why I like ketchup, but don't care for tomatoes.

I don't know exactly why I wrote all of this.. Sometimes I just require a moment to self evaluate and understand why I do things.. It's part of the processing bit that I was talking about...Understanding myself helps me to cope with the 'shoulder hitchhikers'...and see them all in an outside perspective rather than being the one who gets it all at once. A stand back standpoint.

Anyway. I really don't enjoy using cliches, but "one day at a time" seems appropriate lately. We'll see how that goes.

Last Post Addendum

Heyyy! If all goes well, I'll be getting the first season of Criminal Minds sometime next week.

What does this mean? New series to Marathon and a decent dose of Mandy Patinkin! (In case you were wondering, he's wicked cool)...

This could well turn out to be awesome.

*Fingers Crossed*

Also, if anyone besides Whoville and Suki Wa reads this blog, send good thoughts and prayers their way.. They're getting jerked around too much over this buying a house business.. Enough is enough.

Thanks and Thumbs up in your Personal Direction for it..

My media sections are amazingly outdated..

Don't worry. I'm fully aware of this, and am completely ashamed of myself.
Been watching Seinfeld like a beast in a cage, and finally finished Season 4 this evening. Weird Season. I worry that I finally might be burning myself out of the Sein for a while, so hopefully tomorrow the library will provide with another healthy diversion....Been considering Big Bang Theory on the suggestion of some close friends.. but highly doubt my library will allow for it. As it happens, I can't go back to Blossom just yet (After a week or so of singing its praises, it will tend to get...gasp..stale.)... Maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised.

That's the trouble with getting shows on dvd-- you can marathon them real quick and lose the very reason for getting them in the first place. Does this mean I'll stop this ritual in favor of patience and time honored reflection? Hell no. I'm gonna be me, just have to find more eps or different shows to compensate for the speed.

And that is all for now. Haven't been up to too much, pretty busy with office stuff lately, and as always, anxiously awaiting my Saturday off.

Apologies for the recent grumpiness, I just haven't been in the writing mindframe. Don't fret, as my track record tends to show, this element of my personality is flighty at best, and usually doesn't last too long.

Ps. I need a good book. Soon.

The lack.

I don't feel like writing much lately, and as nothing has been going on, it's not too big a deal.

However, typing with a cut thumb is most unpleasant..Finding this out the hard way.


Will update later..if I feel like it.

Five Fives of the Week

Movies Recently Watched:

1. Renaissance Man
2. Family Man
3. Runaway Bride
4. My Girl II
5. The Secret Garden (That Colin is a weepy kid...and Medlock is just plain unpleasant.)

Current Tastes:

1. Chicken Brats stuffed w/ Mozzarella & Garlic
2. Sliced French Baguettes
3. Vegan Soy Slices (This is actually better than it sounds)
4. Yogurts—All and Any
5. Live Active Drink Mixes

What I've Been Up To:
1. Burning Cds
2. Being a proper Insomniac
3. Attempting to get internet working on Mac again.
4. Plotting certain story ideas/film ideas
5. Scouring cool tv shows on dvd for library visits.

What I've been daydreaming about:
1. Visiting Fam
2. Better Job
3. Trying to retrieve my old shows from Youtube
4. California
5. Cool studio apartments

Some Serious Stuff On My Mind Lately:
1. Life's Purpose
2. Getting older
3. Acting
4. Missing Friends
5. Writing

50 Recent Thoughts..in no particular order

1. I don't think I'd ever want anyone to come around and “box my ears”

2. Water is especially nice sometimes.

3. I like Martha's accent in The Secret Garden..

4. I haven't figured out why I like the color red so much...darker especially."

5. Multitasking is such fun; it's mental exercise.

6. I sometimes wish I could get paid for doing these things.

7. I wouldn't mind being 21 again, but with a 40 year old mind.

8. Finger-Food is just about the best there is. Everyone I know are all about the 3 course meals, and the seminal family gatherings...Me? A few people around or myself just enjoying simple things and having a few moments to enjoy the quiet.

9. I still have a lingering thing for hats—though I hardly ever wear any.

10. I'm not at all sure I'd be doing this list right now if I had internet—so for that I suppose it's a blessing in disguise. Haven't been writing as much as I'd like.

11. Always had a passion for lists.

12. I don't much like the company of birds or dogs—but if pressed, I'd be more inclined to prefer dogs...especially older ones.

13. Been considering the application of using electrical energy residing in humans to operate machinery..not like The Matrix where we all become collectors..but little things... If we all have this sporadic energy not being used, why can't it power my morning shave...or make bicycle riding less of a chore..

14. And if that doesn't work, harvesting lemons.. Was pretty sure that they produce electrical current too...

15. Another is corn flakes. Corn is being processed for fuel, yes? Why can't Frosted Flakes be used for something just as efficient? I'm sure we can think up some adverts for Tony The Tiger..

16. Been wondering if humans can really communicate with animals..nothing as fancy as Doctor Dolittle, mind, but some small innate understanding carrying over from Eden. We're all supposedly comprised of the small stuff, why should communication be so different than biological composition? Yes, yes, two unrelated features..but it would be cool knowing what the leopard was thinking prior to chasing the steer...Was it all just predatory or does he multitask too? 'Really should stop by the stream and have a quick drink before running..” Simple things.

17. And while still on that subject, it would be nice to project the former thought to plants. Some of these varieties can live for so many years and yet we have virtually no clue as to what they might be “talking” about. Imagine how many conversations we've missed over several millennium.

18. Still think it would be cool if dreams could somehow be recorded.

19. Is water really absorbed through the skin? And if that is the case, why bother having to drink it orally? Especially if one lived in a rainforest or somewhere that it rained very frequently.

20. Do flies or mosquitoes have any friends? Every time they come around, they have to come with human vicinity or land on them.. It makes me wonder if they have friends of their own.. They are always coming around and being irritating...as if they have no other purpose in life...Just nominated to be the attention whores of their species.

21. Do you suppose there are schools in Heaven? If so, it would be that much more enticing. I mean, no blaspheme intended, but if all you really do is socialize and worship deities forever, it might get a bit routine. If you can learn all there is to learn until the end of time, it might be far more fascinating than just sitting on heaven's porch with Uncle Larry and saying hallelujah every ten mins.. Again, no blaspheme intended.

22. Another one: God is, I'm sure, a busy entity...Would he/she/it find time to talk to all of the people inhabiting the home created for them..or would there just be a large gathering where all could be addressed at the same time.....Personally a little one to one time would be great. A lifetime of questions are just waiting to be asked. Hard to dictate these things to a messenger and wait a few days for the answers. Being omnipotent and omnipresent makes one assume that he/she/it could easily make time for these things.

23. Would it really be possible to digitize your existence after you die? I mean, all the knowledge, feelings, emotions, experiences one can have...could it be placed into a computer? You wouldn't necessary be 'conscious' for it, but could live on?

24. “Greensleeves was all my joy...” What are greensleeves? Are they what they suggest? Just sleeves that are green? Or is there more to it.

25. Been wondering how it is that subtitles actually enhance what I'm watching instead of distract from the action on the screen. I sort of watch both at the same time. Shouldn't that be exhausting?

26. What is the correct pronunciation of the “herbs”?

27. Back to theology for a sec: I've been wondering if once you've been cleared to enjoy heaven and so forth, will the bible characters and/or God talk in old translated English..or will they speak in the modern languages? And better still.. Do these people speak primarily in Hebrew? Communication could be severly limited if all we could do is look, point, and gesture at each other... Perhaps there's translators or language teachers up there. Hard to fathom with that many people around.

28. With so many new advances in technology and in communication especially, why are people still called away on business? Is talking through a computer still that impersonal? Or have we not fully progressed to holographic telecommunications yet? Projecting a three dimensional image of yourself into a chosen space without really being there. It would be very cool.

29. We've discovered many different universes/galaxies/supernovas, etc.. Are there galaxies existing in space that we cannot discover because they are so very small...

30. I rather like snarky folks—most of the time.

31. What is it about soothing sounds that are so appealing...why do they in fact soothe us.. I personally enjoy a crackling fire or horse footsteps on cobblestones... But why.

32. Why do clowns have to be so frightening.. and is it the laughter, the silliness, the makeup that makes them this way-- They just seem unnatural and wicked.

33. Not sure why I find waterfalls so appealing. They're just like any other water source, except that they flow in a certain direction...

34. Some actors just portray anger so much better than their contemporaries.

35. Why do children cry and flail arms when they're having a fit... Isn't it enough to be pissed and not be able to full express yourself than to worsen it by making loud noises and perform unnecessary movements? You're just exhausting yourself and sharing your noise pollution with others.

36. I'm sure children don't consider that---hell, I still don't when I'm throwing a fit..but what if we did during..Interesting stuff that would be.

37. Perception can be so annoying sometimes—especially when it can change after the fact. Instant understanding would be such a luxury.

38. Another pleasing sound: Ice rattling in a glass. Not sure where that one comes from.

39. Sweating is supposed to cool one down, right? It doesn't relax me or cool me down. It just makes me feel unpleasant and ready for a bath.

40. Another consideration on that: After having a sweat, why does the “overheated” feeling linger? Like it feels like one's skin is burning...What's even stranger than that is during a good cold shower, the steam seems to rise out of the skin. Sweat is counterproductive, it seems.

41. Not to be rude, but I don't think wheelchairs should just be for the handicapped. They seem like they could be really amusing—particularly jazzy chairs.

42. What makes jokes funny? What determines one's sense of humor. Is it environment? Upbringing? Appreciation of a certain brand of humor? Is this sort of thing embedded in our genes? For instance, if our parents think something is amusing 20 years before we're born, is there a fair chance that when we finally get around to it, we might find the same thing funny too? I don't think that can be predetermined.

43. These are some of the things I'd probably ask God—if he/she/it didn't mind it.. And it makes me wonder if the comment he/she/it would make before answering would be “Yeah, I get that one alot..”

44. I wonder where last names came from. Some from town or location of origin, yes, but there are so many in the world and most are diverse enough to not be repeated alot...Did we after a while just start making them up? Humans tend to make up things to amuse themselves, sometimes just stories like mythology or the history of the universe...but did it happen with last names too?

45. Okay. Most of the people in the bible originate from mostly middle-eastern type areas.that's fine...but what I don't understand is...how did the languages of the world originate from one established area... Tower of Babel is the explanation...the languages of the world started there.. I guess I've just been riddling over the “Oh, I speak Ukranian, and I speak Chinese...I speak Hebrew..I speak English” so forth and it all came from this one area...Difficult one.

46. And while still on that, before the Tower of Babel, there weren't all these diverse languages supposedly... Does that mean that we all spoke one universal language? And if so, what was it?

47. I suppose I've been thinking a lot about theological items lately. But... energy has also been on my mind....For instance....energy waves in the atmosphere...and frequencies picked up by electronic items...These things should make it easy to believe in just about anything.

48. How does a cell phone lock onto these invisible waves to transmit and receive sounds from a person miles and miles away. Tricky stuff.

49. I've been wondering how it is that we've all become so smart over the last 200 years or so..so that we've been able to manifest such advanced things like computers, or laundry machines or any of that... Time shouldn't be measured by achievements...but by the dreams of regular people. Technological Age shouldn't be so specifically named—It really should be about some dudes who thought interesting things and made them happen. Why should technology be constricted by what was happening in the year you thought up the idea... For instance, why were we able to harness electricity in light bulbs or make screens for watching prerecorded events in the 19th-20th centuries? Why couldn't these things have been possible in the hundred years before this? Maybe it just took the right people to create the right items for these possibilities. I don't think it had anything to do with the year they were born in, just the people involved who were thinking further out of the box then others were at the time. How will it be in this 21st Century world? Will things be invented that couldn't have been achieved in the last Century...or will it be that the right people will exist in this time and show us the dreams they wish to become real...

50. Free thinking tends to unravel similar patterns of other thoughts. Proof? See the 49 thoughts above.

Wednesday before daylight..

Insomnia attacks swiftly and doesn't let you go.

Been going through that motion for the last few nights, and I don't think I'll be let out of it for a few. I do still have Excedrin PM, but I hesitate to use that... as it happens, I'm not much of a light sleeper, and having to be up at an early hour really conflicts with the urge to crash--and stay crashed.

Dreaming has been effortless lately-- although I'm finding it hard to remember exactly what it is I'm going into these days. Calm dreams though. That at least is a bonus.

Also-- was googling around, doing the usual relatives search..found Calvary Tabernacle or something similar..Uncle Joe's church..heard his testimony for the first real time..always caught bits and pieces from Mom..but yeah.. I'm nearly 27 and I still think he's a interesting guy (Always thought he was kinda cool as a kid, due to the music thing and the creative writing bit..although at times it was hard to understand distant relatives...or any of my relatives for that matter..it's always been some kind of secret unspoken thing between us all..but that's for another day.)

Two big things struck me while listening, aside from how good a storyteller he is live-- 1. Usage of the Wizard of Oz as a metaphor for his younger life..(Was an obsession for me back in the day--read scripts, watched outtakes, etc.).. 2. How much he sounds like Billy Joel--in speaking voice.. Never really noticed that. Actually, it's kinda weird. He and Mom don't talk much(Hard to when being far away), but they sound similar when you get them talking about something--not the voice so much, but the general inflections...But yeah..He's Billy dead on--or at the very least, Long Island sounding, if that makes sense(it does to me.)

Not much else going on. I do enjoy the comfort of a quiet night, but it's hard watching the sun come up and trying to survive on fumes. Really must make an effort to sleep semi-normally.

Weekend Recap

Okay..didn't get the job. Whatever on that..still say they shouldn't leave hiring processes to 19 year olds..but that's just my opinion.

Good times with Who & Suki setting up their new house(fingers crossed on that)...

Rocky Mountain Chocolate is a magical place indeed...the german chocolate apples are...mmmm.. I'm a writer and I'm speechless...yes, that good. :)

Watched "Taken"...Liam Neeson is a badass--don't let the slew of cutesy artsy films and the "I'm Oskar Schindler, and you're not" war crap fool you. Liam can throw down when necessary, and throw down he did for a full hour nonstop. Watch it. It's pretty amazing stuff.

Also, finally watched the first Die Hard movie.. I've never sat through it, and still I'm a Die Hard: With A Vengeance(read: 3rd in the series) fan... What a cool flick. Yeah, I know, you were expecting more, but simple truth is its just pretty great. Action, good lines, Rickman's the baddie, what could be better.

Not a bad weekend really.

Interview After-Glow

Things went well..


I'm both pleased..frightened at the prospect.

And now you know~