Current Thinking.

Perhaps it's strange of me to feel like I'm neglecting my blog-- I probably am not, as I do tend to update fairly regularly.. The thing is, I can't maintain really long entries lately, as I don't sleep as often as I would like. At best, I'm good for maybe one decent sized blog every week or so.. I dunno.

I'm tired. Good news is I'm off shift in about 2 hours or so...It's funny. That's what I wait for lately. The chance to relax has been the luxury of the month. I imagine when I get the other job I need it'll be hell for a while. Eh. The hardship comes with the territory. I'll manage. I always do.


In other news, Bejeweled still taunts me. Mostly, I don't like it--but then, every so often, it seizes control of me, and I excel in it..if only for a brief moment. I hate games like that. You think you could win big, but in truth it's just a tease--an excuse to log in, sit for hours at a time, and feel the disappointing failure. Sure, it's a game, but I'm unfortunately scarred by such things. Perhaps it was the need to be perfect that ruins the experience for me, or the fact that I never really had a motivating drive to be competative. In fact, I loathe that word. Must it always be about who wins...who loses...If nothing else, the game should be entertaining. And if not, then why bother in its undertaking. I know.. Because it gets under your skin, the idea that you cannot be the best smolders in your mind like lingering ashes in a fireplace.. So little fuel to burn you, but enough to make you want to keep crackling away.

I don't like it. I prefer games in which I have a decent shot at using my talents. The more creative, the better chance I have. Mere puzzles, word, math or otherwise, just don't hold any intrigue for me.

Wow. This post was more than I anticipated it to be. I guess I had to vent. It seems sorta ridiculous really-- it's just a silly game, it has no meaning anywhere else besides this plastic internet world.. but still I need to prove myself. Yuck.

Good to get that frustration out. Lol. I'm such a dork-- no matter what age.